Merry Christmas Grievers (HEAL - pt. 1)

Pain:  physical suffering or distress, as due to injury, illness, etc. a distressing sensation in a particular part of the body: a back pain. mental or emotional suffering or torment: I am sorry my news causes you such pain.

 

"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. "Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you shall find rest for your souls. "For My yoke is easy, and My load is light."

-Matthew 11:28-30  

 

Below is a letter that I received last year that was enlightening and admirable; heartfelt and appreciated. It inspired me to write a piece last year entitled; "What Are You Doing New Years Eve." I will re-post that piece on December 30th of this year. These same words, and an update sent a year later from the same person, has motivated me to put pen to pad and share my thoughts on healing. After Hurricane Sandy & the Sandy Hook Elementary tragedy I think it is safe to say we all need to heal from something. The holidays often invite over some uncomfortable house guests. Bitterness, loneliness and grief are the names of just a few. Over the next few days I want to discuss healing and what healing looks like. I hope you join me in the discussion and look inwardly and evaluate where healing needs to take place in your life. Remember, you can't change, fix or heal what you don't acknowledge. But first lets revisit the painful words of a hurting soul I received one year ago this month. Letters like this are the very reason I write.

Merry Christmas Grievers 

I'm seriously putting myself out there for this note, being the "Debbie Downer" for the "Happ, Happiest Season of All", but I'd like to put a shout out for all of those who are struggling, wanting to close their eyes and run from all of this candy coated happiness. 

I'm not turning atheist or anything; I don't use the word "X-mas". 

I know this is the time of year that we, as born again believers in Jesus Christ, celebrate the season of our Savior's birth.  He has come to set the captives free, the light of the world that once lived (and still some do) in darkness will see the glorious light of our Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Prince of Peace.  (Isaiah 9:2, Isaiah 42:7)  That alone is great cause for rejoicing. When I think of God sending his son to die for what I've done so that I could live forever in glorious celebration of the creator, I want to do more than a happy dance.

However, (this is the downer part) in my realm of living, people seem to hide the feelings of depression when it comes to the holidays.  They are forced to put on their happy faces and pretend that everything is okay with their world.  The people around them don't want to mention the pain to spoil the season.

Isaiah 7:14 

Cooler temperatures, shorter days, leaves are falling.  Halloween comes and goes, then the Christmas decorations come out.  Before you know it, Thanksgiving.  Blink and the Christmas season is here.  The season brings on a wave of memories.  I have personally seen a Hallmark, Lifetime Christmas.  I've heard people talk about the memories and traditions their family experience.  Old time ornaments from years gone by are hung on the tree. 

That's such a wonderful blessing to have as a reality.

But (insert the Christmas carol screech to a halt), this isn't reality for a lot of people.  Christmas brings on hurt, loss, and painful memories.  The holidays trigger them multiplied.  I know, I'm one of them.  Struggling through the holidays every year for a very long time, I go on a search for what I can find of Christmas that will balance out the riot going on in my head.  The loss of dreams, hopes, desires, what you thought would transpire in this season isn't exactly what you dreamed of for you.  

How do you get through the season?

Let me inform you at this point, I am not a scrooge. 

Acts 5:31 

I like Christmas carols, I rejoice at hearing of how families spend the holidays and put up the lights together.  Just this year, as part of my "make a new memory" campaign, my daughter who was once totally estranged from me, came over and helped me wrap presents and ate Thanksgiving dinner at my house.  Don't take for granted the things that happen in your life every day.  Some have no family at all. 

How would you get through the season with no family at all?  (Insert prayer)

For me, this is how I'm trying to change my attitude.  First, it is what it is.  I've got family who love me the way they know how.  I love those around me the way I know how.  I'm not experiencing my totally longed for dreams-yet.  But I'm making new ones.  Putting the past behind me, most of it in boxes so I can pull it out as a testimony of what the Lord has brought me through. 

I'm putting up new memories starting this year. 

Matthew 1:21  

Looking for things in my world to fill the void, the loneliness that comes with grieving. Like the time I experienced peace on earth goodwill to men at the Goodwill store when an Iraqi and an Iranian met and smiled.  New memories, being intentional on finding them and not letting the past ruin yet another year.  

Learn from me, if you spend time looking behind you, you will totally miss what's right in front of your nose. 

Look in the present and forgive the past.  

Heal your lost memories, make new ones.  Grieve, heal, gain strength from God our Father and trust He will give you new memories.  I know it's easier said than done because I'm going through it myself.

What I'm asking is this: Think of the ones who are grieving in any area of their lives during this holiday season.  Not everyone has the perfect holiday.  I have spoken to people who are not having a good time right now and I feel so sorry for them.  They're trapped in their emotions for fear of wrecking the spirit of the season. 

John 3:16  

Please pray for them, that the things that cause them pain be replaced with love.  That healing comes and they can experience peace and strength.  

For those who grieve from a death this year, I am so sorry for your loss.  I'm so sorry for the pain you must be experiencing.  For those who grieve a loss of memories and dreams of what you thought your life was going to be, I'm so sorry.  It may be a long road, but healing is there for you through Christ.  He makes all things new, heals painful scars of hurt, rebuilds new dreams, and if it is His will restores old ones. 

Try to look for things God puts in your life today, He wants you to smile. 

He wants you to have a hope and a future, not a longing for something that's in the past you can't redo.  That's what I'm trying to do, find healing.  And I will find it.  My prayer is that other grievers find it too.  

Merry Christmas grievers, you're not alone. (12.15.11)

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You're Not Alone  .  Chris Botti

 

A Christmas Story: Facts & Insights

Share: to receive or contribute a portion of: we can share the cost of the petrol; six people shared in the inheritance

Below is an email I received from a man that I deeply respect and admire. Paul is a giver, not a taker, and all that he does is centered around the needs of those around him. As I said, I deeply respect him and admire him. Below are his words concerning Christmas and who Jesus Christ was, is, and will always be.

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A Christmas Story: Facts & Insight

As we approach Christmas, it may be helpful to review the accounts of Jesus' birth in the early chapters of Matthew and Luke -- and not depend solely on Linus and Charlie Brown.

Joseph was engaged to Mary when she became pregnant without losing her virginity per Luke 1:31-37, and also to fulfill the Old Testament prophecy in Isaiah 7:14.  Joseph was disturbed by this unconventional pregnancy and planned to "divorce her quietly" per Matthew 1:19. An angel set Joseph straight in a dream.

Caesar Augustus

Joseph and Mary lived in Nazareth, but the Roman Emperor, Caesar Augustus, declared that a census would be taken the year Jesus was born.  Therefore, the Jews of occupied Rome were required to return to the town of their ancestors.  Since Joseph's (and Mary's) ancestry could be traced back to King David, they were required to travel to Bethlehem, the City of David.  

Of course, Mary was 8+ months pregnant at this time, and probably not real excited about a 70 mile journey, which probably took 3 days.  Most interesting how God uses a secular event (the Roman decree for a census) to fulfill the prophecy from Micah 5:2 which states that the Messiah would be born in Bethlehem.  

The prophecy was written around 700 BC!

Of course, there was no room in the inn, so Jesus was born in a stable amidst the smell of animal excrement, and he was placed in a "manger" or feeding trough, and covered in strips of cloth -- most likely Mary's undergarments.  

Rather unsanitary conditions for a birth -- even by 1st century standards.

" herefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel."  - Isaiah 7:14

And who gets the scoop on the birth of the Messiah?  Shepherds!  Pretty much the lowly working class of the day.  The shepherds were there the night Jesus was born, since the angels appeared to them in fields near the manger per Luke 2:8. Angels appearing to humans does not happen very often, but since this is THE DEFINING MOMENT IN EARTH'S HISTORY, a bunch of angels appear to the shepherds to announce Jesus' birth.  An absolutely mind-blowing event -- an incredible intersection of the spirit and human world!!!  

Notice the succinct statement the angel of God made to the shepherds in Luke 2:10-11 -- "Do not be afraid (which was a good opener since the appearance of angels can freak out anyone) I bring you GOOD NEWS of GREAT JOY for ALL PEOPLE. TODAY in the CITY OF DAVID a SAVIOR has been born; He is CHRIST the LORD." Focus separately on each of the words in ALL CAPS, and consider the impact of each phrase. In particular, I am frequently reminded that Jesus is indeed the LORD -- the rightful ruler of every aspect of my life.

He is the reason for the season...

btw, get those kings out of your nativity scene at home. They were not there the night Jesus was born, but came perhaps 6-18 months later per Matthew 2 and visited Joseph, Mary and Jesus in a house at that time.

And of course, the humble circumstances of Christ's birth ... and His life, His ministry and His death -- all according to God's plan, AND according to the Old Testament prophecies. Who would ever devise a plan the way God did? Jesus was born as an apparently illegitimate child to an unmarried couple who were obscure members of a small nation on the outskirts of the Roman Empire. He lived in such obscurity that apart from the New Testament we know very little about him (although the Roman and Jewish historical references corroborate the New Testament). 

His brief three-year public ministry ended apparently in complete failure: rejected by his people, betrayed by one of his disciples, deserted by the rest, condemned by Rome, and apparently snuffed out in the most humiliating and painful form of execution.

 " Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. " 

- Luke 2:11 

 After Jesus' resurrection, His disciples claimed he was the Messiah foretold by the prophets and raised from the dead. But the disciples were hardly the kind of people you would expect to start a worldwide movement. They were blue-collar workers who came from the wrong part of Israel and had no formal education, no military might, no political clout. This movement should have evaporated quickly with little consequence on human history.  

But God orchestrated all of it.  

He sent the Holy Spirit to the bumbling, dense Disciples and they became the Apostles in the early church.  Interestingly, in Acts 5:12-42 there is an excellent account of the early beginnings of the church.

“But you, Bethlehem Ephrathah, though you are small among the clans of Judah, out of you will come for me one who will be ruler over Israel, whose origins are from of old,  from ancient times.”

- Micah 5:2 

Anyway, like the tiny mustard seed that becomes the largest plant in the garden, Jesus correctly predicted that His church will become very large and far-reaching in its influence.

Take time to study the nuances that are typically overlooked in the "Christmas story" in Luke 2 and also Matthew 1. 

Share it with your loved ones. - Paul Boyer

What Child is This  .  Lindsey Stirling

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Halleluiah  .  Jeff Buckley

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Sandy Hook

Heal: to make healthy, whole, or sound; restore to health; free from ailment. (2) To bring to an end or conclusion, as conflicts between people or groups, usually with the strong implication of restoring former amity; settle; reconcile: They tried to heal the rift between them but were unsuccessful.

He heals the brokenhearted
  and binds up their wounds.

-Psalm 147:3 

Sandy Hook Elementary

Its been a little over three days since the unspeakable tragedy in Newtown, Connecticut and like many the grief, pain, and sadness I feel while watching the various news outlets is palatable. I have six children with three of them being under the age of eight, and when I look into their eyes, while I observe them in silence and without their notice I feel overwhelmed almost to the point of a panic attack imagining the same horrific event befalling upon them; my wife and I. And with all of those disturbing emotions being sadly entertained within me I can't for the life of me even begin to understand what they're going through. The nightmare that the good parents and people of Newtown are living leaves me without a single word that could be uttered to rightfully console them in their hour of need.

An hour that will most likely last for a lifetime.

In the end, it's remarkably troubling to even have typed the last paragraph.

In all actuality this was something I wasn't going to write about. Almost immediately text messages were sent, Facebook posts were posted and twitter was flush with people's perspective, opinions and pain. The conversation was political, religious and at times even sanctimonious. Sometimes the commentary was all the three at the same time. With all of this being said, it was the comments of two "Facebook friends" and the words of my pastor, Ken Murphy, that lead me to changing my mind and writing about the tragic event.

I must first say that 99.5% of all the post I read were so saddened by news that they were left feeling empty with the words they said. Words are just not enough. This is understandable, but with everything that was said two posts stood out to me. They disturbed me. They hurt me. Both posts troubled me because of the harsh tone that was taken in scolding parents for the lack of time they spend with their children. The person that communicated those words is in his mid forties and has no children. The other Facebook post stated that too many people not involved in the Newtown tragedy grieve inappropriately and add too much drama to the situation. This person went on to add that animals are inhumanely killed daily and very few people even take notice. Most times, if not always, I do not respond, but this time I couldn't help myself.

My response was one word and its definition: 

Empathy: the intellectual identification with or vicarious  

experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of another.

The response to my response was equally disturbing, at least in one case. The first person, upon further review, posted that his words were insensitive and what he was trying to say didn't come out correct. He went on to say that we are all hurting over this unthinkable situation. I agree with him. We are still "Facebook friends." 

The second response was less conciliatory and apologetic.

This person went to great lengths to criticize my posting of the word "empathy" and its definition. She even went as far as to refer to me as "boo". She stated that she is empathic to the many various tragedies we see every day and does not single out one over another, besides, she laments, what about animal cruelty. I thought her response was pathetic.

We are no longer "Facebook friends." 

 

I'm not necessarily sure eliminating her as a Facebook friend was the mature thing to do; the appropriate thing to do, but in my heart it's tough for me to spend time, whether in person or on Facebook, with someone that has such a callous heart, and poor perspective, towards those that are hurting so deeply.

I wish the person no ill will, we just don't have very much in common.

The other reason I decided to comment on this situation is because the words by another person that enlarged my perspective and reaffirmed a couple beliefs I already had. The person was Ken Murphy and his words were tangible, sustaining, and comforting.

Allow me to share. 

Tradgedy has a not so funny way of getting our attention. The affects are sobering and staggering. During times like last Friday we can find it very difficult to even breath. Many questions are asked and fewer answers are given when we encounter evil like Newtown has. 

Many times, if not always, the words are spoken; "Where is God?" How can this happen? Why would God allow this? The answer is God doesn't allow this and He isn't surprised by horrible act. He is deeply saddened, but no surprised. John 16:33 states these words:

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

In His word in Psalm 33:13-14 He gives us this truth:

"The Lord looks down from heaven
    and sees the whole human race. From his throne he observes
    all who live on the earth."  

In the end, He promised pain in this life. The good news is He see's all men and He sits on the throne with complete dominion over all. Some pain we will experience is unthinkable, but God will always provide peace at some point, even in the most difficult of situations. I believe that. As one philosopher said: “I believe all suffering is at least potential good, an opportunity for good. It’s up to our free choice to actualize that potential. Not all of us benefit from suffering and learn from it, because that’s up to us, it’s up to our free will.”

And free will leads me to my second point.

It's important to remember that God has given man two of the greatest gifts he could ever be given: salvation and free will. God gives us the free will to choose Him and to choose doing good. The choice is completely ours. When you couple evil intentions and evil behavior with free will the potential outcome can be very similar to the one we saw last Friday. All the new laws and regulations that will certainly come out of this will never be able to conquer evil and free will. Evilness and free will is the most deadly combination known to mankind. Evil does have a flip-side, it's called goodness. 

Lastly, when we as country experience what we are currently experiencing what is to be our response? In a word it is Pray. Psalm 55:22 states:

"Cast your burden upon the LORD and He will sustain you; 

He will never allow the righteous to be shaken."

Matthew 11:28 shares this with the reader:

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." 

In the end, prayer is the key. Praying in God's spirit and asking for His comfort, His peace, His aid is life changing. I think it is also important to pray that God will take what satan caused for evil and turn it into good (Genesis 50:20). 

I'm not sure what good will come about and what it will look like, but I trust God knows.

Finally, the painting below is the masterpiece of Thomas Eakins entitled The Gross Clinic. 

The Gross Clinic 
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AMAZING... 

I love it. 

The detail, the color, everything about it is amazing to me.

  

The man in the center of Eakins' painting was Samuel David Gross (July 8, 1805 – May 6, 1884). Gross was an American academic trauma surgeon. Surgeon biographer Isaac Minis Hays called Gross "The Nestor of American Surgery." In 1875 Dr. Gross was is immortalized in Thomas Eakins', The Gross Clinic, believed by many to be the most important American painting of the nineteenth century. 

The Gross Clinic, or, The Clinic of Dr. Gross, is an oil painting on canvas that stands 8 feet by 6.5 feet. In the painting, Dr. Samuel David Gross, a seventy-year-old professor dressed in a black frock coat, lectures a group of Jefferson Medical College students. Included among the group is a self-portrait of Eakins, who is seated to the right of the tunnel railing, sketching or writing. Seen over Dr. Gross's right shoulder is the clinic clerk, Dr. Franklin West, taking notes on the operation. Eakins's signature is painted into the painting, on the front of the surgical table.

So there it is, one of my favorite pieces of artwork, if not my favorite, is a picture of a 19th century healer; a doctor. The great physician.

As I reflect upon one my favorite pieces of art and look deep into the storm that is Newtown I'm reminded once again for our collective need of healing; healing only that can be administered by a great physician, the greatest physician of all; Jesus Christ. 

"Head of Christ"

Philadelphia Museum of Art, John G. Johnson Collection, 1917" c. 1648 56. Attributed to Rembrandt Harmensz. van Rijn and Studio, Dutch.

Many of us suffer daily with an innumerable amount of troubles and trials; issues and concerns. They range from the irritable to the life threatening; from the inconvenient to the serious. When sin was introduced to mankind in the third chapter of Genesis God forewarned us that trials and tribulations, suffering and sickness would be our lot until He returns again. 

But he also promised to those who believe in him that He wouldn't necessarily remove the valleys in our life, but that He would journey with us through them.

Either you believe that or you don't.

I do believe it.

 "Head of Christ"

"Head of Christ," c. 1648 1650 by Rembrandt Harmensz. van Rijn, Dutch, is a part of the "Heads of Christ" series at the Philadelphia Museum of Art

Psalm 147:3 states; "He helps the brokenhearted and binds their wounds." And David tells us in Psalm 103:2-3; "Praise the Lord, my soul, and never forget all the good he has done: He is the one who forgives all your sin, the one who heals all your diseases." 

In reading those pieces of scripture I realized that God is for me and not against me, and that disease isn't just about physical sickness and pain. Disease, sickness and pain, can be in the area of how we view ourselves or others, it can be defined by our lack of emotional or financial well being. 

Disease, pain can mean many things to many people, but the one constant is no matter the disease or the pain, God, the Great Physician, can heal us.

Healing doesn't always mean life for the cancer patient or for the victim of a violent crime.

Sometimes God's glory is displayed through death. I can't explain it nor do I want to experience it anytime soon, I just know that there are times that God does His best work in death and gains His greatest praise and glory when life sadly comes to an end. The greatest example of this is God allowing his son, Jesus Christ, to be crucified on the cross. 

I realize that it's highly unlikely I will ever own Thomas Easkins' masterpiece, The Gross Clinic, or any other of my most admired pieces of art, but with that being said, the most valuable thing I can attain is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. A masterpiece that is less about religion and more about relationship. A relationship that is constant, consistent and caring. A relationship that will provide daily peace, wonderful comfort and unconditional love that is without prejudice and merit.

 

And though I will never have Dr. Gross framed prominently over my desk, I can, and do, have God's word planted in my soul, His forgiveness cemented in my mind and his love framed in my heart.

"Head of Christ"

 "Head of Christ," c. 1648 54. Attributed to Rembrandt Harmensz. van Rijn, Dutch.

The Great Physician.

He is available to all who seek Him and who is in need of His healing power.

And He is available today, not someday, but today, for all those who want to come into the presence of The Great Physician. 

It is my hope for each victim and person affected by the horrific tragedy in Newtown will make an appointment with The Great Physician and allow Him to begin the healing process and in some way heal their broken heart.

That is my prayer. That is my hope. 

I love you Newtown. I'm so sorry for your pain. - Shawn 

 

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Fragile  .  Sting & Chris Botti

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Stress Bucket (re-post 2.13.11)

Pressure: the exertion of force upon a surface by an object, fluid, etc., in contact with it: the pressure of earth against a wall. The state of being pressed or compressed.

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As I ponder this morning on the amount of different paths one can take in life I believe the person that chooses to walk down the path of constant anxiety and stressful living to be one of the most destructive choices we can make and one of the worst paths we can take. Dr. Hans Selye defines stress as "the rate of wear and tear within the body." Our body's initial reaction and response to stress is to create an alarm reaction. Our internal organs mobilizes it defenses and protects the body against danger. There is so much that has been written, and so much I will not attempt to write, on the physical, and psychological, damage stress can cause in our lives.

I believe one of the best ways to combat a difficult situation is to gain a greater understanding of the situation and to increase our knowledge in any area or category of life that we are struggling in. And as we grow in awareness and knowledge it is still our responsibility to put our new found knowledge into practice. 

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Like I've said many times; "knowledge is the knowing, wisdom is the doing."

One of the most powerful and empowering pieces of information I've gained concerning stress was from the book "In the Realm of the Hungry Ghost". Dr. Mate pointed out three universal truths and reasons for stress in our lives.

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Allow me to share. 

The three universal causes for stress in one's life are uncertainty, lack of information, and a loss of control. 

One of the most destructive forms of Chinese torture during war time was to provide an extremely inconsistent administration of their torture. One day a prisoner would be given food to eat, the next three days he would only be given water. Some days they would be beaten every hour only later to be left alone for a week. The Prisoners said the lack of knowing what was coming next was as destructive as the torture itself. They reiterated that this form of "torture" was as harmful emotionally, mentally and physically as the actual torture. It is often the not knowing, and the uncertainty, that will create the most mental torment and emotional anguish in our lives. 

My parents have always shared with me the best way to make a good decision on something important is to gain as much information and knowledge as you can concerning a situation and then weigh your options. when we have a lack of information surrounding a certain situation we can often begin to give ourselves over to unwise thinking. We will often start to assume, over think, or worse, guess on what the proper thing to do is. 

The next is a biggie because most of us, whether we want to admit it or not, are complete control freaks. A lack of control can throw the strongest of people in to a complete free fall and tailspin. This is one of the reasons why dealing with some physical disease or aliment can be so destructive emotionally and mentally in our lives. When we are sick, seriously ill, we are harshly introduced to this fact. A lot of times we really don't have as much control over things as we think we do; our health and our children are a great reminder of this truth. Remember, we are not built, nor were we created, to control everything in our lives.

South Beach...

The reason I have inserted pictures of South Beach in this piece is to subliminally remind all of us that a change in our perspective can be the one of the strongest and most productive pursuits when struggling, and dealing, with stress.

My perspective is often changed by a reminder of a past experience, gaining knowledge and praying and reading God's word. 

As I review the three universal truths concerning stress I'm able to respond, combat and deal with stress in my life. I can ask myself questions about why I feel so stressed. Is it my lack of knowledge? Is it the fact that I'm completely uncertain of the outcome? Or is it the harsh reality that I have no control over a certain situation? Being able to go through this Q&A process is powerful to me.

This way of thinking is part of the process in relieving stress in my life.

I said part.

The other part, and the biggest part, in relieving stress is to give everything to God.

2 Corinthians 4:8-10 and 16-18 shares this with us: 

^"8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; ⁹ persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. ¹⁰ We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.

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¹⁶ Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. ¹⁷ For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. ¹⁸ So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

Change your view of things...

In the Chinese culture the word for crisis is written by combining the symbols for the word danger and opportunity. Stress is the same: both a danger and opportunity. When realize what is causing the stress, and more importantly what questions we are to ask ourselves concerning the stress, we grow and become stronger. We increase our emotional and mental IQ when this occurs in our lives.

Crisis

It doesn't hurt to pray either.

Pray for wisdom concerning if this stress is a genuine threat or a golden opportunity.

Or both.

Pray for increased knowledge.

Pray for peace concerning the uncertainty of the future.

And finally pray for the strength to relinquish all control and give it to the One that was intended to control the situation in the first place. 

When we pray these things we will see, and feel, the pressure subside. 

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Heaven Knows  .  Lalah Hathaway

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